2014 was a pretty rubbish year for me. Nothing much happened, my anxiety worsened and I lost friends. I didn't go anywhere and I became more isolated than I've ever been. This time last year I wasn't entirely optimistic about the year ahead. I had no set plans to sort out medication for my anxiety, no sense of direction or excitement for anything. I welcomed the new year in bed, on my own, listening to Damien Rice and being pretty depressed and feeling sorry for myself. This year is different. Yes, my family have all gone out with friends and I'm sat at home with the dog due to feeling so anxious recently, so New Years Eve hasn't exactly improved, however my optimism has.
I don't want to bore you with medical terminology etc but I'm finally moving forward with some long term medication for my anxiety. Hopefully in a few months, assuming I persevere my way through any worsened anxiety or side effects, I will start to feel a lot better. I'm trying hard to be postive. I've made a list of all the things I want to do when I eventually get back to myself, get back into life again.
I want 2015 to be the year I finally get better, meet new friends, socialize more,blog more, travel more. I haven't been on a plane for 2 years now and I hope more than anything that by this time next year I'll look back knowing that that is no longer true. There are so many things I want to do. I want to go back to Paris so badly. I want to visit New York ( I write this whilst listening to Frank Sinatra and I swear on my life the theme from New York New York just came on). Even London! I haven't been to London in a couple of years and that I miss too.
So many things people take for granted I miss or am missing out on. I truly wish 2015 will be a good year for you and myself. I have a good feeling about it :)
New Years resolutions/ goals for 2015:
- Grow nails again
-stop swearing
-sort teeth out ( again ) ( had braces, didn't wear retainer) ( I hate myself)
- Get on medication and get better
-start travelling again
-blog lots
-learn to drive
-maybe start a YouTube channel ( maybe )
- write more songs and record them
-keep reading lots
-try and keep a diary
-meet my friend Chloe
Whether I achieve some of these, all of these or only one of these, one thing is for certain. I'm going to try my hardest to do them all. See you in 2015 :) Have a happy New Year x
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